I was on a roll back in December with my fitness updates. Since then, I've even given up meat. It hasn't been extremely difficult but it's been a major learning process. Learning where your food comes from and how it's made really begins to churn your stomach and makes your head spin. Coupled with the ideas and notions that certain illnesses that supposedly "run" in your family might not actually be hereditary. You start to question a lot of things in society from marketing to medicine and it really encourages you to focus on putting GOOD stuff in your body and on it. Being 100% truthful, I have eaten meat since I "stopped" eating it. Sometimes succumbing to temptation, other times out of human habit.
I started taking pictures to document my fitness journey in the beginning but after a while, I felt as if the pictures were distracting me from the entire purpose of why I started in the first place. My obsession became to look thinner for more obvious change in my pictures not really caring about my actual health or how I felt internally. I'm sure if I took a picture today, it would be WAY different from December, maybe I will do one soon..
Since we're being so truthful, in all honesty, I went on this whole fitness binge for Corey and not for myself which seemed to fail me miserably. I resented him for making me feel inadequate, unattractive and fat and I despised myself for letting him do that to me. After a few months of not working out, I was inspired to go out and pick up new hobbies that would make becoming fit interesting to me because Lord knows I'm not cut out for the gym, and I haven't enjoyed running since I was in college.
Here are some notes I use to keep myself motivated
- Focus on milestones no matter how small they are
People are always focusing on the big picture instead moving frame by frame. Instead of focusing on running a mile, work your way up and do a half a mile first. There's nothing wrong with working in small increments.
-Focus on how you feel versus how many pounds
Losing pounds is a tricky way to monitor progress. Eating the right foods can give you weight in different places and exercising builds muscle mass. You're not always going to lose weight when your body changes. Focusing on how you feel, if you're able to wake up in the morning, did you stop feeling heavy and sluggish instead of counting pounds.
-Remember it takes 21 days to break habit or start a new one
This is probably the most underrated advice that I tell myself. We think change happens overnight and time empirically proves us wrong over and over again. Habits aren't created quickly so give yourself time and a little slack to be where you want to be.
-Water not only keeps me hydrated internally but keeps my hair/face quenched
Prior to my lifestyle change, my face was riddled with large pores and tons of blackheads. Since cutting out meat, I've noticed a major change in the hydration of my skin and my hair. Although it's not the best it could be (I've picked soda back up to replace meat) I know that these milestones are positive signs that I'm going in the right direction.
-Social media can be detrimental to your positive psyche
Scrolling mindlessly on Instagram does have adverse affects on your mind. If every time you go on Instagram, there are some snatched women clad in bikinis subconsciously you are going to feel like you are less or that you should look that way. The majority of social media is definitely not a good place to seek self acceptance or body positivity.
-Change your thinking, TREAT day not CHEAT day
I honestly think I deserve to treat myself daily. Like, not even on some fat shit on some real legit, I deserve this just because. So once a day I treat myself to whatever my heart desires. Cheating has such a negative connotation to it, so you automatically equate the word "cheat" with something bad. Break that habit!
-Pick up a hobby
Some people love to do 1,000 fucking squats and run in a circle for 40 minutes. That's just too boring for me. I love to rollerblade and roller-skate. I love tennis, handball and jumping rope. I like to struggle swim. So, I used all the activities I love to come up with a workout routine that was intense but also fun for me and didn't feel boring.
WHY I QUIT MY JOB